I’m only here because my wife and son would miss me.
When my parents died in a two week period and I was toying with he idea of suicide, my sisters said I wouldn't do it because of the trauma it would create for them.
I was like, Oh, that really wasn't part of the suicide equation.
What happened was I asked myself the "to be or not to be" question my nervous system said, "NO! I have too much life force left."
My nervous system never talked to me before that.
I guess it never had a good reason too.
Since then it only talked to me one other time.
I was going in for back surgery and the drs kept saying, Just so you know, you could die on the table.
As I was going to get the operation, I felt a n incredible surge of life force energy in my gut the likes of which I have never felt.
It was my nervous system showing me the hidden resources it had to keep me alive.
I knew I wouldn't die on the table.
On a side note, that awareness of those hidden resources makes me think the Covid won't kill me either.
I could be wrong but it's comforting to think so.
On a side note: WS wrote the "to be or not to be" line after his kid died.