yeah the anxiety of trying to squeeze in even a few meetings a week, plus al the stuff you’re supposed to do above and beyond simply attending, caused me more harm than good after a few years. It was just what I needed for the first few years though.
I still think It’s a great place to start off with a 90 in 90 even, get a feel for it and hear the horror stories and the miracle recovery stories and get some of those slogans and behavioral changes battered into our stubborn drunk ass know it all brains. Then decide. Really I would say give it a full year or two before deciding whether regular meeting attendance is still helping, or becoming a possible hindrance in your overall development as a normal non drinking person.
Some people start off going as true hard core skeptics, perhaps ordered by a judge or whatever, and they become the biggest success stories. Others work a “great program” for years, have a bad slip after say 10 years of sobriety and sponsoring people and chairing meetings etc. and the guilt overwhelms them and their self loathing and shame drives them to put a shotgun in their Mouths.
please don’t be that guy. If AA “guilt” and any other negative feelings have you feeling dark, maybe take a break from meetings for a bit, see a real shrink with lots of experience in addiction, and pursue more personalized strategies for not only staying sober, but thriving sober