When my mom died and my dad killed himself 3 weeks later, I considered killing myself.
I told my sisters, after the fact, that I considered it, and they said, "Oh, you never would have done it because of what they would do to us."
I was like, "Oh, that never entered into the equation."
Here is the really weird thing, I seriously asked myself if I should do it, and my nervous system answered back really strongly, "No, you have to much life left in you."
And then the issue was resolved and I never thought about it again.